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Anime: Reconnecting with what was Lost

I’ve noticed in my site stats that I’ve been getting a surprising amount of visits from Japan.  Konnichiwa! They probably just think I’m some American baka, but whatever. Anyway, I had an epiphany today.  And if you care, I’ll share it here. I wrote a concert band piece a while ago, inspired by Sound! Euphonium.  It’s actually not a bad piece.  Everyone I’ve shown it to has liked it, and I’m actually somewhat happy with it too.  It’s something I’m not ashamed to share, and I guess that’s something. Compared to… Read More »Anime: Reconnecting with what was Lost

Self Control

In Love Live, there are a lot of different groups, and one of the interesting things is that each one has their own character to their lyrics and songs.  The three main groups – mu’s, Aquors, and Liella, tend to write happy, cheerful songs that are supposed to be like, well, pop songs I guess.  but they’re not the only group, and the groups like Arise and Saint Snow have different lyrics, and they tend to be far more success and goal oriented. “Self Control”, for example. One lyric that got… Read More »Self Control

Why Anime Hurts

I’ve watched a lot of anime lately. Now, let’s be clear about one thing:  I’m pretty picky about the anime I watched.  Some anime that is very popular I dropped after as little as one episode.  “The Quitessential Quintuplets”, for example.  Maybe I’ll pick that up at some point, but I doubt it.  It has no real redeeming quality, and is just cringe to me.  Others I watched through and somewhat regretted it.  “My Dress-Up Darling” was in that category.  It was brainless and the main character seemed to be… Read More »Why Anime Hurts

Hibike! Euphonium: My regrets

This usually surprises people to find this out about me, but I went to college as a piano performance major.  I didn’t complete college for health reasons, but that was my major.  I attended a medium sized college in Northwest Ohio (you have maybe three to choose from, and I’m very close to telling you which one after all).  And I rank choosing to become a piano performance major to be one of the biggest mistakes I’ve ever made in my life, and there is very little positive that I’ve… Read More »Hibike! Euphonium: My regrets

Anime, Otaku, and Lost Childhood

I didn’t get a childhood. I’m not really exaggerating in that statement, though as with every statement like that, there are nuances.  It’s generally correct. I did not get a childhood.  Every opportunity I had for “normal” development was stunted – either inadvertently or deliberately.  The end result is the same.  I didn’t get a childhood. The thing about our society is that (and this is understandable) you only really get one chance at a childhood.  I mean, after all, you’re a child, and then you’re not, right?  If you… Read More »Anime, Otaku, and Lost Childhood

I’m a Failure

I always fail. If there’s one thing that is consistent in my life and has been ever since I was a child, this would be it.  I’m a failure.  Everything I have tried to do in my life has, in one way or other, ended in failure.  Even the most successful things I’ve done are, in a very real way, a failure. I’ve been spending the past three years working on a serial fiction story, and even now it gets maybe two viewers a day, if I’m lucky – and… Read More »I’m a Failure

I am an Artist

All my life, I have never really understood myself. I mean, of course, I’m me.  I know what is inside my head in a way no one else does – not even me, sometimes.  I have a very complex inner world, and it’s so real and vibrant inside of me that it’s difficult, if not impossible, to get what is inside my head out for other people to see. But, I’ve come to realize, that’s pretty much what an artist is. The thing that has lead to a great deal… Read More »I am an Artist

Why I Hate Anime Dubs

I hate anime dubs.  I mean I really can’t stand them.  I’ve tried to watch one or two, and I always end up dropping it after a few episodes.  Subtitles are far better in my opinion. Is this because I’m an elitist who thinks that the anime is only good in its native language? Well… that’s true, but that’s not why I hate anime dubs.  It’s close, but not really. Is it because I’m upset at the localizers for fucking up the dubs? Well, I am, but that’s not why… Read More »Why I Hate Anime Dubs

Should I Continue Watching Anime?

There’s a “rule” that whenever you see a question in a headline, the answer is “no”.  It’s not quite so simple in this case. The question maybe should be posited a little broader:  Should I continue studying anything about Japan, including Japanese? I’ve asked this before, but the reasons for my question are different now. My recent foray into the world of “Love Live”, and my subsequent flaming withdrawal from said world, made me think.  Oh yes, you might say, that never happens, Gaijin!  You never think about anything! Sarcastic… Read More »Should I Continue Watching Anime?

Liminal Anime

So it’s taken me a while, but I think I’ve finally processed my feelings on “Love Live” and similar anime, and now I will inflict it on you, who may even read this. Anyone who’s watched anime for any length of time knows that there are a few different broad classes of anime.  There’s “Slice of Life” anime, there’s “Cute Girls doing Cute Things” anime, there’s “High School Rom-Com”, there are the action “Shounen” anime which involve a lot of fighting and girls with unrealistic bodies, Shoujo anime which involve… Read More »Liminal Anime