A few days ago, WordPress notified me that I have more than 500 likes on this blog. Of course, I am appreciative that people like this blog enough to like posts, follow, and even occasionally comment.
I am not a good blogger. I am all over the place in topic, basically just writing whatever I feel like at any given time. I’m unfiltered – I probably share too much, and I suck at formatting it into a cohesive package. The time I tried, with the 5 Reasons J-Pop sucks post, it did really well – it is my most viewed post. Which proves I can do it if I try. I just don’t try.
And yet I keep writing. I write, and I write, and some of you read, and I guess it works out. I honestly have no idea why this blog has been as successful as it has. It honestly mystifies me. And yet, here we are.
I suppose if I were a better blogger at this point I’d say “what would you like to see more of?”, and if you want to tell me feel free, but in general, I’ll probably mostly ignore it anyway. I just am what I am, for better or worse. A second rate blogger with a second rate blog with followers who probably are much cooler people than I in almost every way. I keep telling myself I’ll be more disciplined, but you know and I know that it just won’t happen. At least not anytime soon.
I put a lot of myself into this blog, even if it doesn’t seem so. There have been a few posts that I could not get through without shedding a few tears. And there are others where I am trying my hardest to express even a small part of the all consuming rage at the injustice of this universe that I sometimes experience. If nothing else, you are getting the genuine me. I suppose that counts for something. I don’t know if I have it in me to act or lie. I’ve never been able to do so convincingly, at least.
I am grateful, though, that one hundred and forty some people have followed this blog, even though I write about controversial and probably offensive topics sometimes. I am grateful that people have seen fit to like my posts more than five hundred times. I don’t know what the future of this blog holds – seriously, I have no idea at all – but thanks to every one of you for taking the time to accompany me on my blogging journey. It helps me, even if in a very small way, to not feel alone in this messed up world.